I Pity You

What is it about our society that allows cruelty to flourish? A world where adult is a relative term.

You know the type, they are mean just to be mean. They feel as if everyone wants to be apart of their world and therefore they have utter control over those around them by simply offering their approval.

They think that by excluding those they feel to be “unworthy” they are some how above them. Well I have news for all of those mean people out there….

I do not subscribe to this mentality, so I would never refer to you as “unworthy”, but I can tell you that if anyone in this situation is unworthy of anything, it is you. You have no power over me. Excluding me would only make me feel bad if I gave a shit whether or not you liked me. I don’t.

Did you hear that?

I don’t.

I have no desire to be part of what you consider to be the “cool clique”, if you can really call it that. I am not sure that a group of mean spirited individuals gathered together can be considered “cool”, but whatever helps you sleep at night I guess.

You may ask why I am wasting my time writing about this if I truly don’t care.

I am happy to explain myself.

Although I do not care whatsoever about whether you decide to bestow me the honor of joining you for lunch or being a part of your crew, I can not speak for everyone. Your actions are malicious and contagious and the hurt you cause to those around you makes me sick.

If I feel anything for you, it is pity.

What a sad life you must lead. Are you so disappointed in yourself that you are not able to find joy in anything but hurtful acts of exclusion?

Or is that you simply do not possess the ability to be happy for anyone else (without alterior motives)?

I hate to burst your bubble, but jealousy doesn’t look good on anyone!

Your negativity is at the root of all that is wrong with this world.

Treating others as if they are not good enough is your problem. Don’t make it everyone else’s.

There are so many beautiful people in the world.

Talented, wonderful people that you shall never truly know because of your inability to see past the end of your own nose.

And for that reason, I pity you.

However, I still wish for you all the happiness in the world.

May you see the error in your ways and open your heart to those who have nothing to offer you.

Only then will you truly find the joy you are seeking.

Confidence

Here I stand in the corner of my life

Yelling at the top of my lungs, but no one seems to hear me. 

What if I were to scream fire?

Would they notice me then? 

Soft spoken and shy

I cower from societal normalcy

What is “normal” anyway? 

I prefer to be unique

Although sometimes it can be awfully lonely

I am confident 

For someday I will find my clan

And until then

 I stand alone in the corners of my mind. 

I Refuse

I refuse to settle for almost

I want forever

I refuse to give my heart to another love

Unless he is looking for forever

Loneliness is a friend of mine

I enjoy his company from time to time

Looking for fulfilment

Waiting for a love that’s true

I may not be what you wanted

But maybe I didn’t want you.

A love like mine is well worth the fight

For a heart like mine will love you forever

If forever 

Is what you’re looking for