Just Sometimes 

A part of me wishes I wasn’t here

On this earth 

Surrounded by all these humans

Misunderstood 

This tragic little mess of me

A part of me wants to run away

To leave this world

And not to face another day

I am exhausted

Tired of wearing this mask 

Hiding the broken pieces of my soul

Pretending that I am not falling apart

Assuring everyone else that everything is okay

When sometimes…

It’s not okay

I’m not okay

There are moments 

When all I feel is hollow

Empty inside 

Destroyed

Damaged 

And dismembered 

There are times 

When all I want is to be held

To be told that I matter 

Assured that I am worthy

Even if it’s just for a moment

I want to feel as though I won’t always have to walk alone 

But that would mean removing this disguise

Revealing to the world

That I am among the strange

That I don’t belong here 

And so…

Once again 

I muster up the energy to continue this masquerade

Holding it together 

When all I want to do is fall apart

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