Today is a day much like any other
To everyone else that is.
For me today has much potential for joy
But I must first navigate through the emotional baggage attached to its creation.
I awake feeling saddened, disappointed and as I always do on this day…missing something.
A love that will never come, a mother who left me behind and the worthiness I feel on any other day.
And so I spiral
Just for a moment
Holding the hand of Reznor
As I recall all that could have been
And something I will never have.
Feeling quite the wretched
But I do not want this.
And so once I hit the bottom,
I will slowly wash it all away.