I don’t want ordinary 

What if…I don’t want an ordinary life

To be an ordinary wife

Married with children in the traditional way

What if…your idea of normal just isn’t for me
My life…has always been strange 

So maybe for me strange is the new normal

Would it shock you to hear that I don’t care if I ever get married

I did once

A very long time ago

When I was young and he was my muse

But not anymore

I am no longer searching for love

Something I am sure the majority of society would find impossible to comprehend

After all, no single woman in their 30’s would chose to be alone

And that’s where you’re wrong 

I have thought long and hard about this over the last few weeks

And I am absolutely positive that love & relationships are no longer for me

I’m sure the notion sounds insane to most

Or you assume that I simply must be lying to myself

I assure you that is not the case

You wonder how someone could live this way without feeling lonesome 

It can be lonely, but isn’t everyone sometimes

The difference for me is that when I’m lonely, I’m actually alone 

I have been in relationships where I felt the same

And in my opinion that is far worse

I also know what it’s like to find your soul mate

And I know how it feels to lose him

To be loved the way he loved me

Is a blessing in this life

To look into someone’s eyes and know without a doubt that the love you share is unbreakable

It is hard to believe that anyone could ever love me as much as he did

And that’s okay 

Some people spend their whole lives searching for a love like that and never find it

So believe me when I say

I am content

I do not need fixing

And I’d be ever so thankful, if everyone would just stop trying

I have no desire to live the life that everyone else has designed for me

My world is not incomplete just because I am single

If anything, it is more so, because I hold all the cards

I may spend the night in the arms of a man

After all, a woman has needs

But in the light of day, I will send him away

With the explanation, that the ordinary love affair is simply not for me

Judge as you will, but I really don’t care 

I’m tired of living by the expectations of others

If it is not yet clear to you by now

I will reiterate…

I don’t want an ordinary life

To be an ordinary wife

Married with children in the traditional way

For once you have had an extraordinary love

Everything and everyone else just seems so ordinary 

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Dreamers Prayer

As I lay myself to sleep

The silence of the dark wraps tightly around my skin

Alone in my bed 

Swimming in my own imagination 

A fairytale of memories

Written with the deepest of regret

All feels lost, but perhaps it is not 

For all that could have been and all that has yet to come 

Can always be

If I only close my eyes

Let Me In Love

I have never been with anyone I could not forget.

It’s not butterflies, but it’s honest.

So you can imagine my surprise when one certain person refused to leave my mind.

Outside of expectation, without explanation… I just love you…just for being you.

So raw so beautiful, completely purely you.

I didn’t know what hit me

All of the sudden there was you

Holding all of my heart

Seeing me for all that I am

And loving me just the same

They said you would come

But I never believed I would find you

Yet here you are

In the most horrific of timing

our lives racing against one another

each grasping for  a much different goal.

I wish you could only understand just how much I love you

For all that you are

And loving you just the same

Fate brought us together

Let us not allow fear to hold us back

I know in my heart you are my love

Nothing could be any clearer

Let me love me love you

My love

Let me hold you

My love

Sweet love

Let me in

 

 

About a Girl

Once upon a time there was a girl

A girl who dreamed of grandeur

A world beyond her circumstance

A place of peace and security

Absent of fear and doubt.

Filled with inspiration

Flowing with ideas

She wrote

And she wrote

And she wrote

Recording each delicious morsel

In anticipation for the next.

Notebook after notebook

Her words filled the pages

Until one day it was no longer enough

She wanted more

The urge to share her experiences with the world

So she started a blog

Hoping one day she may use these words to inspire

To encourage

To empower…

That day has finally come.

This once young and struggling writer, as of today, is now a published author.

Announcing the official release of….

Insane Roots – A Memoir: The Adventures of a Con-Artist and Her Daughter

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Walker

As the wind blew across his neck, his entire life began to reply itself in his mind.

The birth of his three children and the many times of great joy he has experienced.

He thought to himself, “It is really over? Have I lost everything?”

A single tear began it’s desent down his face and as it slowly met the tip of his nose, his cell phone rang, vibrating against his chest.

He contemplated whether to answer it for some time and as the third ring began he picked it up.

It was little Stephanie, “Daddy, don’t forget the treats for Lizzie!” she exclaimed!

His heart stopped as he mustered up his reply, “I’ll remember my little moon glow” he said softly.

Hanging up the phone, he stepped of the ledge and fell to the ground.

For a moment, he lay there sobbing. Not with tears of sorrow, but tears of joy. It was overwhelming to him that the thought even crossed his mind.

With so much beauty and love in his life, what are a few set backs?

Only a reason to try harder. So he took himself down from his almost end and the only thing on his mind was making it home in time for supper.