What if…I don’t want an ordinary life
To be an ordinary wife
Married with children in the traditional way
What if…your idea of normal just isn’t for me
My life…has always been strange
So maybe for me strange is the new normal
Would it shock you to hear that I don’t care if I ever get married
I did once
A very long time ago
When I was young and he was my muse
But not anymore
I am no longer searching for love
Something I am sure the majority of society would find impossible to comprehend
After all, no single woman in their 30’s would chose to be alone
And that’s where you’re wrong
I have thought long and hard about this over the last few weeks
And I am absolutely positive that love & relationships are no longer for me
I’m sure the notion sounds insane to most
Or you assume that I simply must be lying to myself
I assure you that is not the case
You wonder how someone could live this way without feeling lonesome
It can be lonely, but isn’t everyone sometimes
The difference for me is that when I’m lonely, I’m actually alone
I have been in relationships where I felt the same
And in my opinion that is far worse
I also know what it’s like to find your soul mate
And I know how it feels to lose him
To be loved the way he loved me
Is a blessing in this life
To look into someone’s eyes and know without a doubt that the love you share is unbreakable
It is hard to believe that anyone could ever love me as much as he did
And that’s okay
Some people spend their whole lives searching for a love like that and never find it
So believe me when I say
I am content
I do not need fixing
And I’d be ever so thankful, if everyone would just stop trying
I have no desire to live the life that everyone else has designed for me
My world is not incomplete just because I am single
If anything, it is more so, because I hold all the cards
I may spend the night in the arms of a man
After all, a woman has needs
But in the light of day, I will send him away
With the explanation, that the ordinary love affair is simply not for me
Judge as you will, but I really don’t care
I’m tired of living by the expectations of others
If it is not yet clear to you by now
I will reiterate…
I don’t want an ordinary life
To be an ordinary wife
Married with children in the traditional way
For once you have had an extraordinary love
Everything and everyone else just seems so ordinary