Anger courses through my veins
As disappointment drips slowly down my face
The sadness is maddening
For I refuse to be broken
Not again, not this time.
I own this misconception
For it is mine alone
Acting against my better judgement
A familiar mistake
That always seems to leave me bruised.
I had hoped that this was different
That maybe, just once…
There was more to this life
Than simply existing
Alone.
Perhaps it is valuable
This realization that nothing lasts forever
Life’s piercing reminder to appreciate those moments of pure vulnerability
For they are few and far between.
And growing less likely with every passing day.
Opening up, giving my all
Is not something I do easily
Nor an act I reserve for the common.
But even the exeptional
Have their doubts
Or so it would seem.
My defenses are rising
The walls rebuilding
In one last attempt to step away before it’s too late.
For I refuse to be broken
Not again, not this time.