Dreamers Prayer

As I lay myself to sleep

The silence of the dark wraps tightly around my skin

Alone in my bed 

Swimming in my own imagination 

A fairytale of memories

Written with the deepest of regret

All feels lost, but perhaps it is not 

For all that could have been and all that has yet to come 

Can always be

If I only close my eyes

The Illusion of Happiness

Behind those bright green eyes

Lies darkness

Hidden behind a cheerful grin

The illusion of, a hopeful mind

Although reality is, there’s nothing left

No fight

No Strength

Only pain 

Wrapped around a hollow shell

Of the person she used to be

I pretend

I miss you

Even though I shouldn’t

I love you

And I fear I always  will

I am broken

Although I may seem strong

Each day a struggle 

In my mind as  I pretend

I don’t miss you

I don’t love you

And everything’s okay

Life After Love

It is such a beautiful moment

When the clouds begin to clear

And the sun shines brightly down the path to tomorrow

Just think

A week ago, you were wallowing in disappointment 
Cripled by another broken heart

A pain so deep 

You thought you’d never recover

But much to your surprise

You did

Your life is not over

One’s ego just a little bruised

For the love for yourself is much greater now than ever before

There is no need to feel foolish

For we all put too much faith in others sometimes

You simply loved with your soul

And that is nothing to be ashamed of

It is childish for one to play games with another’s heart

And in the end they are the fool

For the broken hearted grow stronger

While they remain the same

Alone 

Bruised

If you knew the pain I was feeling, would it matter

If you knew that love was fading, would you pick up the phone

I trusted you and those words that slipped off your tongue

And you…you tossed me aside

It could have been different, you and I

But you…you wouldn’t even try

It could have been easy, amazing and even forever

But I guess we’ll never know

For I love myself much more than you

And I refuse to live in a constant state of disappointment

I am worthy of more, much more than this

Maybe you were right

Maybe I do deserve better

I can not change the way I feel

For I fear that I will always love you

Yet in this moment, I know

The only path is moving forward

Beyond this

Beyond you

And some day, I hope

I can look at you without this pain in the pit of my stomach

Absent of desire

And free

Free from your love and the memories of you

 

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Moonlight Dreams

Blue is the haze that sets upon this night

Alone with my thoughts within the deepness of the dark

What was once a place I held secret

Hidden behind stonewalls and barbed wire

Is now the heart of the wounded

Tattered, torn and bruised

Mend it will 

But for now

Under the glow of the moon

All one wishes to do

Is fade into the dream of a better tomorrow 

One without disappointment

Miscommunication 

And unspoken words

A shred of hope buried under the ruble of a broken heart

Just enough to sooth

In the lonely midnight hour

A moonlight dream 

Of what could have been

And the denial 

That it will never be

Fleeting

One by one these days go by

Drawing us further and further

From the fire.

What was once so shiny and new

Is beginning to lose its luster.

Something so easy

Turned struggle  

By the mere mention of hope.

For happiness 

Must be for the delusional

And love is surely a scam.

Excuses for the weak 

The frightened 

And some day 

The justification 

For the lonely. 
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